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violet166

violet166

Poland

August 3, 2009
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I don't know... it's really strange... I always tried to be different than everybody but recently it's really hard to do.. :/ I changed my hairstyle as I wanted and I bought that clothes which I liked... and always it was different that fashion at present... :/ but now... I often made one haircut... and now... half of Poland make the same one like me.. pfffff...  maybe it's stupid what I'm saying, but I hate when sb copies my style...

peace!

Violet

and.. one song... awesome song...

Seether - eyes of the devil

It Irks Me When I Get Burned
And I Realize I Don't Get Hurt
And Always It Seems I've Lost My Way
When I Feel You It's Not Enough
And I Need You To Shun My Touch
I Notice The Season's Ripe For Change

I'm Weak I'm Weak

So With Every New Lesson Learned
I Could Keep You Before It Turns
And The Knowledge That Things Won't Be The Same
Now I Realize That You Have Won
And There's Nothing To Be Said Or Done
And I Notice The wind Won't Blow My Way

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

It Kills Me To Watch This Fade
And I Realize It's All Charade
And Every Mistake I Make Is The Same
I Beseech You To Let Me Drown
Will It Please You To Let Me Down
And Now No One Can Save Me From The Pain

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me From Me

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxVPyE73jJo&feature=related 

damn... Shaun (singer) is so sexy lol xP

August 1, 2009
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I thought that everything will be ok.. but it isn't. I have enough of myself, my mind, my body.. I hate myself... I don't know why I can't be as everybody, for example as my sister.. she is beautiful, she has great body and her the only problems is that too many boys what talk with her..  why I can't have only such problems?  damn.. and I again lost weight.. I'm so 'happy' :/ maybe I should be model.. I'm so thin that size '0' will be for me suitable.. :/ .. my mum ask me about guys all the time... :S it damned annoys me or about prom.. I told her hundreds times, that I won't go to this stupid prom... but noooo.. my mum everything must knows better... and she says that I'll find guy and I'll go to this damned prom..:/ I have no idea, why she doesn't want listen me... I think I'll begin cut myself... maybe at least I'll forget about my stupid mind.. last night I had strange dreams....  I checked it out in dream-book and those dreams mean sadness and bad luck in future.. nice to hear that :( I wrote sth yesterday.. it's not even poem.. I don't know what is that actually... :/

everything still remind me about you
it hurts...
when I see youy with another girl
...
tell me, why don't you want leave me?
why still I see you when I fall asleep?
does sb know answer?
I feel so tired
tired of waiting
but waiting for what?
for love?
which I'll never get?

 

04:17 AM Aug 02 2009

violet166

violet166
波兰

Prince, I'm surprised, because I think, u haven't reason to thanking me. rather I should thank u :) Thanks for everything ;)

Exit_181, everything what I write here, it's true.

zczshdow, good health? I must say that my health is really good ;D and my merits... they're difficult to finding. :/

mysystem, really I don't think that I'm beautiful.. :/

renyipeng, I see that it's funny for u... nice. :S

01:39 AM Aug 02 2009

renyipeng
中国

 hello you r  so confused  haha   iam sure u are a beautiful girl everthing will be  ok   could u introduce your  country for me   i am a chinese  boy

07:46 PM Aug 01 2009

mysystem

mysystem
阿尔及利亚

hi

it was by concidece , chance maybe that i read your topic n i'm really not fun with what'r sayin' n let me explain whay.

whenever u look there's somthin' to be seen ,n really u think that ur not beautiful!!!??? ur amazin'

Wink"not enought to make me a lover",but i'v already seen ur photos ,thanx for hte kiss BTW "i'm one every body",i find more than beautiful.

so i hope that u'll be stronger..if u need a help

here i'm OK  wish GD time ....Mysystem

07:36 PM Aug 01 2009

zczshdow

zczshdow
中国

In my opinion,you are very beautiful.Not all the people  like Not to look beautiful,the beauty inner that is the people like most.  I think a good health is than important than the beauty.Find more merits what you have,andyou will be more confident when you ignore your demerits.

04:51 PM Aug 01 2009

Exit_181

Exit_181
沙特阿拉伯

try to cry alot, it is helpful :)

actually it is interesting short story. i hope it is not real, and it is just a joke. And nice prose as well  

03:39 PM Aug 01 2009

prince_of_love
厄立特里亚

 By the way, Thank you for everything! I don't know why, I just felt like thanking you.

03:16 PM Aug 01 2009

prince_of_love
厄立特里亚

You really should be surrounded with people, who really cares about you, that's the only way which will take you out from the hole of sadness and the feeling of hating your self. I wasn't and I don't think that I will be around real friends which I could deeply depend on, but I really wish this blessed gift would be given to you.

I have nothing else to give you, except my best wishes and my words, I know it's not enough, but I believe about the great role which sometimes the words, sentences! leave in the heart of the person!

 

July 29, 2009
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so long! I didn't write! but I need that again... frankly, now I prefer write in polish cuz I can write such things which I think I can't write in english.... bullshit.. sorry. anyway. I didn't want write about this. today I decided that I won't think about this what I feel, it's not important, it's only problems, nothing more. I always had stupid heart and still I have...  but it doesn't work.. I won't help anybody, nobody never told me frankly 'thanks that u helped' firstly, they ask about help but later they forget about me, nice, isn't it? I don't know why for so long time I was kind and helpful...  pffffff... again I write about different things... so, I decided that till now I will do everything for myself, I won't help people, they don't deserve it. friends? I don't need them.... they always told me 'u're my friend' bla, bla, bla... and later they have me in their ass. conclusion? I won't care about them! it's not my fucking business that they are doing and vice-versa, right? pffffff... honestly I feel like drink sth... I mean beer? but.. it's impossible :S

ok, half of my thoughts I forgot when I have begun write. great! just great!

bye, bye people

I guess that I won't write here for long time again.. :S but of course I'm not sure. I'm unpredictable.

08:39 AM Jul 30 2009

violet166

violet166
波兰

just a person, I know, I again talk about those stupid things.. :/

Prince, I don't want hurt ur feelings or sth like that, but for me friend is person with who I can share my problems and frankly, I know only one person who can be my friend, but she isn't.... anyway, I think, that I am for people, but people aren't for me... it means that I can help people, but they can't help me. oh, and believe me, a lot of (most) people hate me for this who I am.

NAJLA, thanks for the song, it's great :)

03:16 PM Jul 29 2009

NAJLA

NAJLA
沙特阿拉伯

Cry

You feel sth like

Save the Hero

I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But I’m not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
I’m left with no shoulder
But everybody wants to lean on me.
I guess I’m their soldier.
Well, who’s gonna be mine

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help.
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl…
After she saves the world
After she saves the world.

I bottle all my hurt inside,
I guess I’m living a lie.
Inside my mind each day I die
What can bring me back to life?
A simple word, a gesture
Someone to say you’re beautiful
Come find this buried treasure
Rainbows lead to a pot of gold.

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.

I’ve given too much of myself
And now it’s driving me crazy
(I’m crying out for help?
Sometimes I wish someone would
Just come here and save me…
Save me from myself

Who’s there to save the hero
When she’s left all alone
And she’s crying out for help
Who’s there to save the hero
Who’s there to save the girl
After she saves the world…
After she saves the world.

listen to this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tb0tycNJc-I

Hope you'll get better soon

and be yourself no matter how others treat you

just be yourself :)

03:03 PM Jul 29 2009

prince_of_love
厄立特里亚

Violet: You might not consider me as a good or even as a friend, but really I enjoy every poem that you wrote, every idea that u expressed, step by step, I used to wait with patience for your next poems because I believe about your ability in expressing your opinions clearly and simply which anyone can understand. I thank you for every poem you shared with us, and I really feel bad after reading what u said, about you won't write once again!! I consider it as a bad news for me!!

P.S: be sure, not everyone doesn't care about you, there are alot, you just have to see them with an bright heart and shining eye's!

01:30 PM Jul 29 2009

just a person
阿联酋

 :( :(