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violet166 — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 23:39:30 GMT

title is not needed

ok, Prince, u wanted see what I wrote...

it's stupid..

it's just story..

he had broken heart
she still looked for love
and he met her
he was saying, she is savior for him
she was saying, he is lovely vampire for her
she could do everything for him
he couldn't live without her
and day by day
they began to go away..
his heart didn't suffer already...
but her heart felt sth, which she couldn't call...
and when she realized that she love him
he had already another girl
so she was so fucking good
and didn't tell him what she feel to him
because, now, he has 'new life'..
he doesn't care about her
and she lost her chance
even she doesn't know when it happened
(...)
just three things are sure
she loves him.
she wants everything the best for him
and it's all her fault.
(...)
but he gave her so much...
he showed her what means love and wild happiness... :P
... that even metalheads can be sensitive
... that metal is not bad ;D
(...)
maybe, one day...
they will meet
and she will wear those black clothes and make that 'fucking awesome make-up'
and they will go to have fun together...
not as pair...
but at least as friends...

it's my life and my business!

violet166 — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 14:01:49 GMT

it's my life and my business!

I’m really, really angry… and everything because of my mom… she again told me that I don’t want go out to people, that I don’t talk with them. Just I talk with these stupid metalheads…. And that I take stupid photos and I look terrible.. bla, bla, bla… can’t she understand that I’m not like all these stupid people from my village or my class? But she still tell me they normal and the only who is strange and insane is me…. Cool… :/ the worst that she doesn’t know how I am really. Before I didn’t show what I think really and always I thought about this what I do, what kind of photos I show my friends etc. but thanks one stupid guy, I opened my eyes and changed myself. And I like myself now. But my mom tell me all the time that I’m not normal, that I should talk with people…. Bla, bla, bla.. it’s boring.. anyway, what can I talk with people from my village about? They are all hypocritical and just pretend nice and friendly people. Mom grumble that I don’t go to disco or anywhere, I told her, I haven’t intend go to disco where are those fucking stupid guys! :/ everybody are the same, just look for the most beautiful ‘barbie’ and later go fuck… pfff..that’s why I won’t go to disco. Damn.. is it so hardly to understand??? I think, no. but my mom doesn’t want understand that I’m not like everybody. And I don’t want be. Anyway, it’s my life and my business, right? By the way, my sister is not better. She always shows my mom my crazy photos.. pfffff…. My sis is so commercial? She writes these stupid ‘HeLLoW! HoW ArE YoU?’ one letter small, next big.. awful.. :S what’s more… my mom told me that I have to with my sis to disco on Sunday… I don’t know, my sis is small girl or what? She’s 14 yrs old! So, she can go alone!

I think again the same.. :S

violet166 — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:56:32 GMT

I think again the same.. :S

I feel that I'm sad again.... today in night I dreamed about black cat ( it means that I help person who doesn't deserve it :S) and about one boy...it's old affair and I don't understand why I dreamed about him... and I think that I should stop help that person.. frankly, maybe he doesn't deserve it, he nothing to do for me, just always me... the worst thing that I help him because I love him... ehhhh.. damned stupid, I know.. :S lucky, soon, school year begin and I won't have so much time for thinking about him and my stupid emotional life... :S so maybe I'll forget...

see ya, people

take care :)

?! how it can be...? :/

violet166 — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:15:03 GMT

?! how it can be...? :/

I don't know... it's really strange... I always tried to be different than everybody but recently it's really hard to do.. :/ I changed my hairstyle as I wanted and I bought that clothes which I liked... and always it was different that fashion at present... :/ but now... I often made one haircut... and now... half of Poland make the same one like me.. pfffff... maybe it's stupid what I'm saying, but I hate when sb copies my style...

peace!

Violet

and.. one song... awesome song...

Seether - eyes of the devil

It Irks Me When I Get Burned
And I Realize I Don't Get Hurt
And Always It Seems I've Lost My Way
When I Feel You It's Not Enough
And I Need You To Shun My Touch
I Notice The Season's Ripe For Change

I'm Weak I'm Weak

So With Every New Lesson Learned
I Could Keep You Before It Turns
And The Knowledge That Things Won't Be The Same
Now I Realize That You Have Won
And There's Nothing To Be Said Or Done
And I Notice The wind Won't Blow My Way

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

It Kills Me To Watch This Fade
And I Realize It's All Charade
And Every Mistake I Make Is The Same
I Beseech You To Let Me Drown
Will It Please You To Let Me Down
And Now No One Can Save Me From The Pain

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

So Run With The Eyes Of The Devil
And Keep Them In Your Dreams
If You Succumb To The Lies Of The Rebel
You'll Cleanse Yourself Of Me

Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me! (I'm Weak)
Jesus Save Me From Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxVPyE73jJo&feature=related

damn... Shaun (singer) is so sexy lol xP

again this stupid sadness...

violet166 — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 21:23:33 GMT

again this stupid sadness...

I thought that everything will be ok.. but it isn't. I have enough of myself, my mind, my body.. I hate myself... I don't know why I can't be as everybody, for example as my sister.. she is beautiful, she has great body and her the only problems is that too many boys what talk with her.. why I can't have only such problems? damn.. and I again lost weight.. I'm so 'happy' :/ maybe I should be model.. I'm so thin that size '0' will be for me suitable.. :/ .. my mum ask me about guys all the time... :S it damned annoys me or about prom.. I told her hundreds times, that I won't go to this stupid prom... but noooo.. my mum everything must knows better... and she says that I'll find guy and I'll go to this damned prom..:/ I have no idea, why she doesn't want listen me... I think I'll begin cut myself... maybe at least I'll forget about my stupid mind.. last night I had strange dreams.... I checked it out in dream-book and those dreams mean sadness and bad luck in future.. nice to hear that :( I wrote sth yesterday.. it's not even poem.. I don't know what is that actually... :/

everything still remind me about you
it hurts...
when I see youy with another girl
...
tell me, why don't you want leave me?
why still I see you when I fall asleep?
does sb know answer?
I feel so tired
tired of waiting
but waiting for what?
for love?
which I'll never get?

need to write. need to cry.

violet166 — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 20:12:48 GMT

need to write. need to cry.

so long! I didn't write! but I need that again... frankly, now I prefer write in polish cuz I can write such things which I think I can't write in english.... bullshit.. sorry. anyway. I didn't want write about this. today I decided that I won't think about this what I feel, it's not important, it's only problems, nothing more. I always had stupid heart and still I have... but it doesn't work.. I won't help anybody, nobody never told me frankly 'thanks that u helped' firstly, they ask about help but later they forget about me, nice, isn't it? I don't know why for so long time I was kind and helpful... pffffff... again I write about different things... so, I decided that till now I will do everything for myself, I won't help people, they don't deserve it. friends? I don't need them.... they always told me 'u're my friend' bla, bla, bla... and later they have me in their ass. conclusion? I won't care about them! it's not my fucking business that they are doing and vice-versa, right? pffffff... honestly I feel like drink sth... I mean beer? but.. it's impossible :S

ok, half of my thoughts I forgot when I have begun write. great! just great!

bye, bye people

I guess that I won't write here for long time again.. :S but of course I'm not sure. I'm unpredictable.

damned poem ab nothing! I mean ab love :/

violet166 — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 22:12:19 GMT

damned poem ab nothing! I mean ab love :/

No title

Tell me
who I am?
what am I doing?
Tell me.

Tell me
who I am for You?
what do You think about me?
Tell me.

Tell me
how do You feel when You see me?
do You lie when I ask You about truth?
Tell me.

Tell me
why I doubt in Your words?
why I suffer because of You?
Tell me.

now, I tell You one
I love You
fuckin' stupid guy
I didn't want it
but it happened
I didn't believe in love
but it come to me
without asking me
without reason...

but I don't want this love
I don't need it
and I will live like before
like nothing happened
even if my heart will bleed
I won't tell You that.

recently, I found out that without feelings real poet writes nothing. it's really impossible write about sth but doesn't feel that. I know about what I write, I feel that....

stupid, drunk driver and speed-the best way to accident...

violet166 — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 22:57:11 GMT

stupid, drunk driver and speed-the best way to accident...

lol. u see, in sunday was accident, near my home. driver was probably drunk, car went almost 200 km/h ! three guys died immediately, they were 17, 21 and 24 years old, girl (my neighbour, firstly everybody thought that she died) is 16 and doctors give her 6 % for survival.. her brain is dying... and one guy, 18 years old, he'll survive.... it's almost sure.

and... frankly, I must say that I don't feel sorry for them. it's everything their fault... they were young, too young to die.. but it's still their fault... it was new car and driver wanted show how fast it can be. and he showed.. :S

sb. even made film ab one of these guys:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndsqoX4oFvE

in end of movie u can see photos from this accident... just awful... :/

why do u need friends? and why do u want know new people?

violet166 — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 21:54:25 GMT

why do u need friends? and why do u want know new people?

well, 2 questions, as u see. I ask because I don't understand that. why do u need friend? because u want tell him/her ab ur problems. or what? because for me, it's not normal when everybody share with me their problems.. or that I share with other people my problems.. :S it's not fuckin business what I did and what kind of problems I have, right? so, I don't want and don't like talk ab my problems... even it's very difficult and I suffer, I don't tell anybody ab this. it's my damned business. anyway... I have one friend.. emm... maybe it's not good description.. it's sth. that I like him so much and I don't want lose him.. heh... he always say that I'm his savior xD and... frankly, he's lucky that I replied him when he wrote to me first time because not always I reply for messages from uknowns xD I'm again beginning talk ab me. fuck.. :S anyway, I want know why do u need friends? for have fun, for sharing ur problems? or what? I only want understand that (but I don't know if it's possible looooooooool)

and 2nd question, why do u want meet new people, to find out sth. new about different countries, or simply, to meet people with who u'll be happy? or sth. different? I have no idea. frankly, even me.. I don't know why I talk with another people here... I can't believe that some of them want know sth ab me.. it's strange for me, because for exp. me. frankly, I don't care what sb do in his/her life, bla, bla, bla.... it's not my business.. I don't know person, yeah?

offfffff.... I think, that's all... as usual I forgot ab a lot of things but now I don't remind anything.. :S

see ya people...!

AND DON'T FORGET LEAVE COMMENT!

hahahahah

next fuckin' poem 'Liars'

violet166 — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 22:04:49 GMT

next fuckin' poem 'Liars'

I hate ~when u say 'I can't talk with u now'~

~but u can~

I hate ~when u behave as if u don't know what ab I'm talking~

~but u know very well~

I hate ~when u tell me 'I'm the only" "u're sb special for me'~

~but I'm not~

don't u know that I feel when sb lie?

when u don't tell me truth?

I really know ab this...

and it hurts like hell

becoz I like u so much

and

I hate u, ur lies

maybe even our friendship is only lie?

I don't know

I know one

I hate liars

next poem..

violet166 — Sun, 05 Jul 2009 22:15:26 GMT

next poem..

it's damn bad... I couldn't describe that what I wanted...

again
in my mind
this thought
that I'm fuckin' crazy
***
those nighmares
which I can't forget
this awful pain
pain of death
I regret...
but it's not my fault
I didn't want it
my mind wanted
and I saw it
and this fuckin' pain
this fuckin' fear
***
I'm afraid fall asleep
never I know what will happen
maybe this nightmare again come?
maybe I'll never wake up?
maybe I'll stay in that nightmare?
may this pain never leave me?
maybe
one day I will wake up without mind
damned insane?

yhh.. my fresh poem..

violet166 — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 22:03:07 GMT

yhh.. my fresh poem..

I don't feel like write again (before my fuckin' pc turned off :S) why I wrote this poem... it's just because of my friend who tell me that I can't talk to one guy...

LAUGH AT U

u tell me 'don't do that'

i tell u 'i can do what i want'

u tell me 'don't talk to him'

i tell u 'i can talk to everybody'

u tell me 'don't love him'

i tell u 'i never loved him'

u see how much u mistook

u don't know me

u can't tell me what I should do

with who I should talk

it's my business

even it's bad

even I will regret and suffer one day

it's still my business

not ur

so leave me alone

don't tell me what I should do

it's my life

not ur.

lol

violet166 — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 10:11:59 GMT

lol

pfff. I wrote here that I wouldn't write and enter here, but it impossible, I have too much free time.. and I often enter here.. lol anyway.. I'm at friend's home. frankly, I must say everybody except her sis, bro and mom are stupid.. even my friend.. I didn't know here from this side.. :/ she cry all the time, and tell what who have to do.. :S but she says she does everything alone.. and later she says that we didn't help her.. but she doesn't want! lol she is awful.. I feel like argue with her.. anyway.. everybody here are strange. they can't say sth normally, just they cry at everybody.. it makes me crazy.. at my home everybody are rathere calm and even sth not going good we try be kind, it's better than cry at people, isn't it? and I think her dad doesn't like me.. :S lol. he despise me... because I'm from the country.. :/maybe another people doesn't see that.. but I see. I'm not stupid. I see how he talk to me... when he say about this that I have field.. pff... he treat me almost like cleaning woman... honestly. I want come back to my home... maybe I will be bored there.. but at least there is normal.. without this cry.. lol. they're rich and some of them think they're better than everybody... pfff... I don't like her dad.. firstly I thought he's nice.. but later I changed my opinion about him.. :/

I don't know how much time I can stand here... it's to much for me.. everything begin irritate me.. :/ fuck them... I won't come to them next time. no way!

it's over.

violet166 — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 16:53:32 GMT

it's over.

emmm.. hey people!

I wanted only say that it's end of my blog here, maybe not for the forever, but I don't feel like write blog here.. i don't what happened.. just i lost sth ? I really have no idea... maybe one day I will come back here, but... and.. sorry if I won't reply for ur messages but I won't here too much... u can catch on facebook: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1273211327&ref=name

or interpals: http://www.interpals.net/violet166

and.. for the end: two songs, which recently I love:

Plain White Ts - Natural Disaster

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BfGM7TUZZQQ&feature=PlayList&p=8CEBAD325DF0A2C4&index=81&playnext=2&playnext_from=PL

She said she saw me on TV
This girl's a legend in the late night scene
And you can see she aimed to please
Cause she just wouldn't take her eyes off me

She made the music come to life
She moved her body like a butcher knife
Chopping up every guy in sight
She was mysterious
I could not resist to save my life

I don't know what this girl was after
She's a natural, natural disaster
She's so sexy
I had to have her
She's a natural, natural disaster
Natural disaster

Now when she left me on the floor
She knew I'd follow her right out that door
She'd always leave you craving more
Just the addiction I've been waiting for

She made the music come to life
Staring me down with those electric eyes
And when she said 'Your place or mine?'
I was delirious, I could not resist to save my life

I don't know what this girl was after
She's a natural, natural disaster
She's so sexy
I had to have her
She's a natural, natural disaster
Natural disaster

All my love
What's your name?
What's your game?
Show me how to play
All night long
Cause I can see you and me going all the way
All night long
And I don't even really care what you're after
All night long
As long as you keep going faster and faster

She said she saw me on TV
This girl's a legend in the late night scene
And you can see she aimed to please
Cause she just wouldn't take her eyes off me

I don't know what this girl was after
She's a natural, natural disaster
She's so sexy
I had to have her
She's a natural, natural disaster
Natural disaster

I don't know what this girl was after
She's a natural, natural disaster
She's so sexy
I had to have her
She's a natural, natural disaster
Natural disaster

and: Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6pW_q1PvH0&feature=PlayList&p=8CEBAD325DF0A2C4&index=82&playnext=3&playnext_from=PL

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

just try it, this last song is so sweet... xD

oh, and.. if u know polish... xD here u find me also: http://gdybymbylapolitykiem.blox.pl/html

and: http://itmakesmehappy.blox.pl/html emm.. but I didn't finished create this blog... :S

sweet, nice, kind.. just awful...

violet166 — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 12:57:06 GMT

sweet, nice, kind.. just awful...

I can't understand why all people here are so swwet and kind? cos I can't believe that everybody are such nice... here in Poland mostly people are unkindly and they don't notice that they can hurt sb. frankly, I like it. nobody tell me what I must do or don't ask me ab my businesses... it makes me independent. and I feel indepedent. but.. still I can't understand that? is here only good people? maybe I didn't meet these unkind people.. and honestly I don't want meet them.. I only want to know why here is so much love and friendly atmosphere? cos I don't like it too much.. evrybody love each other.. bleeeee... I just remainded one situation when ane guy first time wrote to me and tel me that he love... I told him that he can't say that cos it can't true and he told me that 'i love u' mean the same what 'take care' soooooorry.... but if it means 'take care' so how he want tell one girl, that he really love her and can't live with her? I think he won't tell 'i love u' cos it means 'take care' hahahahahahh.. really funny :/

ehhhh.. I wanted write ab 4th June 1989r. and 'Solidarnośc' and the end of communism in Europe... I don't know, but u don't know that in Poland was first country in Europe where was first free elecion... I will write ab this... it was very important for Europe but unfortunately mostly people that end of communism was when broke Berlin Wall

boszzzz.. czuje się taka pusta...

violet166 — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 00:21:18 GMT

boszzzz.. czuje się taka pusta...

Yo, people!

try it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFDoWyZFvJk&feature=PlayList&p=8CEBAD325DF0A2C4&index=73

Måns Zelmerlöw - Miss America

A wakeup call for the girl
Who has everything
The morning sun
Has a special meaning
She lives a dream that will end
When the sun goes down

She'll be alone, feeling lost
Thinking she's unknown

Ohh

Tell me why you're crying Miss America
Tell me why you're sad
Tell me what's hurting you so bad
I will never leave you Miss America
In your deepest despair, I'm there

Down on the street
She's expecting a limousine
But it's a one way ride tonight
She'll say goodbye with a smile
Without shedding a tear

And when it ends
She'll remember her long lost friends

Ohh

Tell me why you're crying Miss America
Tell me why you're sad
Tell me what's hurting you so bad
I will never leave you Miss America
In your deepest despair, ohh I'm there

A final bow, a final curtain call
A graceful gesture that will fool them all
But I will make you smile again
Don't give it up for any of them
I will be there next to you
When it's over, over, I'll be there

Ohh

Tell me why you're crying Miss America
(Tell me why you're...)
Tell me why you're sad
Tell me what's hurting you so bad
I will never leave you Miss America
In your deepest despair

(Tell me why you're crying Miss America)
Tell me why you're crying
(Tell me why you're sad)
(Tell me what's hurting you so bad)
What's hurting you so bad
(I will never leave you Miss America)
I will never leave you
(In your deepest despair)

Ohh, I'm there

(I will never leave you Miss America)
(I will never leave you Miss America)
I will never leave you
I will never leave you

ehhhhh.. I feel so empty inside me... :S really... I don't know what's wrong with me, but I feel nothing. NOTHING. awful. just even sb tel me that he/she care ab me. I don't feel that. I don't know maybe they don't say truth? or maybe it's my fault? I really have no idea.. anyway.. I don't think too much recently...

odbija mi... niedługo pójdę do wariatkowa. looooooooool... xD

my english is really so bad..?

violet166 — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 16:47:44 GMT

my english is really so bad..?

damn... I can't believe... teacher of english established my english for 2 !!! maybe my english is terrible, I know. but it's not fair! mostly people from my class got 2 but they are worse than me.. they even can't do well stupid exercise from exercises book and say sentence in english is very difficult for them, for exp. my friend; she thought half day how say sth. at the lesson of english :S maybe I'm vain now, or sth like that.. but really I don't agree with her.. but I won't argue.. suffice, that she cried at us that we don't know basic english and what we do in that school :S

the worst that about 5 my classmates want move to another school.. they say they won't manage with english in next year...

:( I'm disappointed...

drugs, commit suicide.. or... which way is good to forgot about problems?

violet166 — Sat, 30 May 2009 22:53:59 GMT

drugs, commit suicide.. or... which way is good to forgot about problems?

hey.. people. of course, none of this ways is not good, I know ab this. anyway.. I want say ab sth. different today... ummm.. ab one guy... I will cal him mr. x, it's not ur business how he names really, right? I'm sure he doesn't read these stupid thoughts.. or if u are reading this now... so, read. well, he has some problems.. problems with love.. she live in another country.... anyway... he met me month ago... and frankly.. I still can't understand him... always when I talk with him, I feel so stupid, so strange... :S I'm careful that don't say sth really stupid... :S he always ask me ab some thing connected with love... but what can I say? if I'm only stupid teenager who doesn't know life... but I think I know... xD

and... one question... why people tell me all the time ab my smile? ab my beauty? goodness.. I'm not beautiful! ok? maybe only my face.... but I don't think so.. :S and I want answer!

next day, and next, and next... am I bitch????

violet166 — Tue, 26 May 2009 14:32:57 GMT

next day, and next, and next... am I bitch????

damn.. I have a big headache.... and I don't have medicines... :S goodness... I must learn.. I have correction of test with latin... ohhhh.... and maths.. always when I think ab maths I have stomachache, really. I'm not kidding in this moment...

I want go sleep.. :S the worst that I can't... I CAN'T!!! damn.. I'm stupid.. why am I listening music when I have headache???

Eminem. Forever.

PS. I can't believe.. my sister told me that I'm bitch because I wear mini skirt :S really it means that I'm bitch??? it hurt when she told me that.... from my own sis....

I want die....

violet166 — Mon, 25 May 2009 20:29:50 GMT

I want die....

I have no power... I'm so bored of life, tired if life... :S I want run away from problem.. but I know, I can't.. but I need that... I'm almost sleeping... ehhh.. I should learn .... I don't know why I'm sitting here and writing my boring thoughts... sorry, I again talk ab this... ab my insane mind.. :S I'm listening Eminem.. again... I can't stop... 1st song, 2nd song.... and again one more time all playlist again.... I don't know what happen to me... I feel more and more badly.... in the day I'm very happy, but I haven't reason.. in night I want only die.. and stop feel so lonely.. :S damn... it hurt.

fuck this life...

my sad, strange poem...

violet166 — Sat, 23 May 2009 10:08:10 GMT

my sad, strange poem...

I'm standing at stairs

I see how weather is changing

storm... it's raining and thundering..

thunder like sun-light and lose

but I'm not afraid of that

only my heart is suffering..like it wants go somewhere

run away

see somebody...

it stopped rain

silent....

storm run away..

my heart is again without feelings..

and only I'm crying...

like I lost somebody important for me :(

after long break...

violet166 — Sat, 16 May 2009 08:59:19 GMT

after long break...

sooo... hello people. how have u been? everything OK? ;) I didn't write for long time.. I didn't feel like, anyway what could I say? that I go to sleep at 2 am or later? that I feel like dead.. that I have too much studies? it would be stupid.. but it was truth.. fortunately (and unfortunately) the end of school year is in the next month and everybody, I mean techears, tests us.. three tests per day? do u think is a lot, or few? I think is too much... I think maybe two weeks and teacher will stop test us..

bye, bye ;)

nice day ;)

violet166 — Wed, 06 May 2009 16:37:57 GMT

nice day ;)

sooooo.. it was nice day... maybe I shouldn't say that because I got 1+ with test of maths.. but.. when i saw my mark and mark my friend.. I began to laugh.. really... ;) i don't know what was nice in this marks (1 is not good mark, don't u think?) but... I'm quite happy today... yhhh.. I forget.... I must learn today.. :S I have test tommorrow :S chemistry.... I think I understand subjects but when I write test I seem that I don't know anything :S I hate that :S it makes me angry.. and.. yesterday.. I special sat and did a lot of exercise with maths, I did about 100 and what? nothing.. she didn't do test today :S

Christiphe Mae, do u know him? it's french singer ;) he has awesome song... but of course it depends.. his songs are a little strange ??? I can't describe that...

at last... I feel that I live... I don't feel like dead.... maybe it because of school or... I don't know

I try to learn write on keyboard without see which key I press... but still I do mistake and don't press right key :S

next....

violet166 — Tue, 05 May 2009 09:07:43 GMT

next....

these poems will kill me one day.. :S I always write them when happen sth wrong in my life... like when died my uncle... everyday when I was in bed and tried fall asleep, I created poems... so much poems... and none I didn't write :S

Again,

I'm listening this song...

it makes me sad

but I can't stop

again and again-all the time...

I begin to cry

life is so cruel, not fair

thoughts about.... my life

is so stupid, so boring, so complicated...

without love

alone

even when I am happy

inside, I'm lonely and sad

smile, smile, please-I say to people

I laugh, smile.. I try to make people happy

and I try to lose my heart...

which tell me: fall in love...

and... people, what's wrong with you? less and less people write blogs.. :S one day.... only I will write blog :S or maybe I should say-diary?

maybe poem?

violet166 — Mon, 04 May 2009 19:23:42 GMT

maybe poem?

yhh.. my own poem :S stupid... I know but.. here nobody know me... nobody say later 'it's she! she wrote those stupid poems...'

They fell in love, so far each other

They loved so much

and it did... something wrong...

he didn't know what... sick with love...

she pretended that didn't see what hapened with him

and it finish...

she didn't suffer, but he suffered so much. Too much.

love hurt, irrespective if we are close or far each other...

and how fall in love without pain?

you look for love, warm.. somebody who will care about you-closeness

but how will you find it, if you afraid of trust?

is possible?

inside, you feel you need it

but you don't know

trust me? trust him?

your own fight never will finish

if you won't let myself to love somebody and feel how wonderful is that feeling.

fucking swine flu...

violet166 — Mon, 04 May 2009 10:31:49 GMT

fucking swine flu...

sorry, but it begint to be annoying.. nothing wrong would have happened if people hadn't come back to their country.. sorry but ity's true. they knew that in Mexico there is swine flu... and that it's infectious.. so why they began to come back to their country. they only spread this flu.. :S

lucky in Poland there is no people with swine flu.. but who knews? maybe tomorrow I will know that near my city sb. is sick with swine flu because he/she just came back from Mexico :S

maybe it's not fair from my side... but.. WHO wants to announce pandemic of swine flu......

yhhh... boring day :S stupid book :S

violet166 — Sun, 03 May 2009 22:15:17 GMT

yhhh... boring day :S stupid book :S

today, I started read book to school, sorry books. there are three volums... I read three chapters and I must tell it's so boring.. firstly, author write ab some testament... it was only 3 leaves and I read 15 minutes :S terrible...

secondly... there is one girl, she was so beautifull, bla, bla, bla u know, as usual in every book :S and her father got engaged her with some man and she didin't know him... later he came to her, because earlier he fought in the war.. he fell in love, he wanted to get married with her.. bla, bla, bla...

and the funnier is that, this what I wrote I read two hours :S it was about 50 leaves.. and it's only beginning :S

fucking book :S

I feel a little confused :S i have too much duties :S and I don't know what to do firstly :S

my head... it begin to hurt me :S

lucky I have two days holiday yet... school-leavers write exams tomorrow and... thought that in two yeras I am going to pass the same exams makes me scared.. first year almost finished but I feel that I don't know anything :S

and these books which I try to read :S

new life...

violet166 — Sun, 03 May 2009 09:03:06 GMT

new life...

no. I don't say about me. just I have more cats, exactly three small, blind kittens ;)

and some people think that cats are stupid, I don't agree.
Because today at about 8.00 ma cat came under my window ( she was outside) and loudly miaowed :S I was surprised, she has quite voice... anyway I let she in home.... and now in my wardrobe, I have 4 cats... hahahaha

and... I don't know what I will do with them :S

about me. part. X

violet166 — Sat, 02 May 2009 21:35:37 GMT

about me. part. X

so, hello everyone, how was ur day? everything was OK or any problems?

today, I thought about this, why I am so strange, quite and difficult person... and I think my person created life, earlier I wasn't so 'stupid'. Unfortunately, my life never was pink and that's why. :(

check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uyhchqx0So

I love his songs... every song is written and compose by him :) I must buy his first CD :D

Senna...

violet166 — Fri, 01 May 2009 09:56:38 GMT

Senna...

do u know that 14 years ago died Ayrton Senna? He was Brazilian race car driver and three-time Formula One world champion.

Here u can see how as a result of accident he died:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwsFzsGHbKQ&feature=related

it was a big pity for world of F1 :( [*]

one last dance

violet166 — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 21:35:04 GMT

one last dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCsTo3Ya7R0&feature=PlayList&p=8CEBAD325DF0A2C4&index=38

"One Last Dance"

One last dance with you
Even though what we have is strong
Both of us know that we've done wrong
You could lose everything
Need to give it up
Just one last dance with you
For all the moments that we shared
All the lies they don't compare
You gotta go back to him, and I realize that
Every time I see your face I know
There's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

One last dance with you
So hard to find the words to say
But I can't see any other way
Girl you've risked everything
Time to give it up
Just one last dance with you
And though it breaks my heart to leave
We both know it's time to let it breathe
You gotta go back to him, girl I realize that
Every time I see your face I know
There's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

So many times we tried to hold back
We been here before now girl
And it feels so cruel, yeah
A million tears won't change the fact that
I find it hard to play the game
When I feel like i'm the one to blame

But I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah

And I would give my heart
Give you the world, risk losing everything I got
I'd give it all to you
And make our peace with god
I know it's the right thing to do...yeah

don't click in these links!

violet166 — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 19:52:08 GMT

don't click in these links!

Hi!

so, recently I noticed that more and more my friends get virus in msm. usually it is because we click in links which sent our friends and we thought it's a safe because it has sent by friends, but not always is right

here is some example such links:

there are many different links but everything are similar to these, oh and maybe one more links: www.messenger.info, may be somebody tells you that there you can check who deleted you from hi/her lists of friend, but it's not true

greetings,

Violet

earrings, webcam...

violet166 — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:52:35 GMT

earrings, webcam...

I think about create video blog, i think it's a good way to improve my speaking... I try to do that tomorrow ;P

anyway, I have a big collection of earrings and I show you, ones my earrings ;)

where are everybody?

violet166 — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 21:46:32 GMT

where are everybody?

so? everybody go sleep? or what?

soon, I show my poem, which I will write in the near future...

I'm sad....

crazy day... ;)

violet166 — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 21:25:36 GMT

crazy day... ;)

haha.. it was crazy day, but I didn't do anything interesting, but firstly today I talked to 2.30 am! I went to bed, and about 8.30 I got up because today was F1 race, unfortunately it wasn't good race for my driver :( he could be 8th or 9 th. but he crashed in another car, at last he finish race as 13th. next race: Bahrain, in next week, i hope there, team will prepare good car.. sorry, I again talk about things which I didn't want ;) anyway later I slept again.... and all day was actually boring...

day before yesterday, i saw beautiful dress in shop, i must buy it! but my mum say that I should dress for the end of school year, I mean black dress, and i don't know now... maybe I buy both...

huh.. it's 23.20 here, and I will do homework... yeah, i know, I know. i'm lazy. I have all day for do that, but I didn't fell like it ;P

eh... usually I write more than I say ;) it's pity that I don't write so much when I have to write essay, essay have to include at least 250 words ( only nouns, verbs, adjectives, adverb) and I never can write so much words :S I must learn that.

greetings,

Violet

no, no, no! I go to crazy. it's a third light bump which broke today :S I have 3 small lamps and 0 light bump... I must buy tomorrow, mum will be angry...

chance or destiny?

violet166 — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 22:40:04 GMT

chance or destiny?

night is so beautiful... warm, fresh air and sky full of stars...

do you believe in destiny?

example: my mum was born 9th August 1986, my dad 10 th August the same year, in the same place.

it's only chance? or maybe destiny?

recently, I have tearful mood, I cry when I watch some movie :S

why everybody say about my eyes, are they so interesting or what?

greetings,

Violet

F1

violet166 — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 12:58:24 GMT

F1

I'm prostrate...

there is more and more bad with R. Kubica's car :S

it's not well. KERS didn't help...

I hope tomorrow will be better

controversial people

violet166 — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 21:35:15 GMT

controversial people

so, I wrote yesterday, or maybe it was already today? anyway I wrote that today I tell about culture etc. in Poland, but frankly I have no idea how it shows and don't bore people, who will be read that. So, I decided, I wrote about controversial people in Poland,

today I write about Janusz Palikot, politician, member of party- Platforma Obywatelska (PO/I don't how is it in english), he says, he want to show in controversial way matter,which are important...

for example:

he wore T-shirt with inscription: I'm a gay, I'm from SLD (one with parties in Poland), he want to point law of gay, lesbian etc. out to politicians and people.

after charge a few policeman about rape, politician showed these things, which you can see in the picture and said that it was symbols of law and justice and symbol of policeman....

third: he said, he thought that Lech Kaczyński(president of Poland) is cad...

there are a lot of another controversial things which he did, but i don't want to bore you ;)

bye, regards,

Violet

ehh... again the same

violet166 — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 22:20:28 GMT

ehh... again the same

why people treat me like bitch?maybe I'm a little vulgar, I hold radical views and sometimes I provoke, but it doesn't mean that I go to bed with every men...

anyway, I wanted to write about polish culture, food, songs etc. but I'll write tommorrow

regards from me and my crazy cat hahaha :D

too much sleep ;p

violet166 — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 22:36:59 GMT

too much sleep ;p

Easter-time of fun, time for family, but time of boredom :S I didn't do anything today and I felt bored, so about 11.00 I went to sleep, I slept one hour, I got up, ate sth, checked e-amils, and went to sleep again... I did that three or four times ;p and now, I can't fall asleep. tomorrow, I promise I will begin to learn ;p I must write two essay with history, it's not necessary but I want, teacher told that if we write essays he checked them and it's good way to prepare to the exams in two years... fuck... I just recalled about chemistry :S I hate that subject like a maths and physics... I must correct my marks...

greetings from a little cold Poland ;p

not sleepy (!) girl ;p

oh, and

I can't...

violet166 — Sat, 11 Apr 2009 21:28:16 GMT

I can't...

I want that sb. hug me, but not like friend, dad or mum, sister or brother, but like husband his wife or boyfriend his girl...

more and more irritated (re roi soleil)

violet166 — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 20:27:08 GMT

more and more irritated (re roi soleil)

I'm more and more irritated, for everyone, every person from my msm want talk with me, but i don't want. so, sorry when I don't answer, and one else, sorry, but I always mark that I'm busy or far from computer, but nooooo, everybody must write to me, they don't see that i'm busy??? it's so difficult, that notice that I'm busy even I listening music or do sth. another... I'm cruel and cynical again... maybe Easter influence such for me? I don't know.

anyway, today was very warm so,I fitted on short dress and went with my brother to play a volleyball :) We played in front of home, near a road, and sometimes guys whistled for me ;P hah... :)

I must get up early tomorrow, I go to the church... you know-Easter. or if you don't know... on forum one polish girl wrote about Easter in Poland, so if you want know, go there.

regards,

crazy, cynical, ironic girl

le roi soleil forever!

time of changes come! ;p

violet166 — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 16:17:51 GMT

time of changes come! ;p

recently, I didn't write, sorry ;p anyway, at last, spring came. I'm very happy.. but maybe I'm allergic to grass pollen, because I have hayfever and I sneeze all the time :S strange, because year ago, it didn't happen ? I will change colour of my hair, for that: I hope, after dye, I won't regret that I did it ;)

:( what a pity!!! (photo)

violet166 — Sun, 29 Mar 2009 07:57:56 GMT

:( what a pity!!! (photo)

who watched TV, that know, what happened, 3 laps before the end of race... ehhh... I don't have any words... I hope that next race will be better than that :(

it's not good view :/ next race is 5th. April

exorcism

violet166 — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 16:28:21 GMT

exorcism

today I watched in school movie about exorcism and it was terrible, now when I'm thinking about this I have shivers :S these screams...

here is video this movie:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BlhFK2Gc1Nw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPkGtbPSwLg&feature=related

it's polish vesion, maybe there is english version, but if you want know exactly what they say, you must find alone, for me enough, that I heard these screams :S

polish comments that is how leave comments in polish and don't make mistake

violet166 — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 22:29:54 GMT

polish comments that is how leave comments in polish and don't make mistake

so, lately I notice how sb left comment in polish under men' photo it was 'jesteś piekna' firstly not 'piękna' (is the same what beautiful), and it's rather term for girl, in polish is definitely term only for girl... secondly in polish almost every adjective is declined, so not pięknA but 'pięknY' you see difference?

anyway, when you want tell that girl is beautiful, you say 'wyglądasz pięknie' or 'jesteś piękna' for boys: jesteś przystojny (you are handsome) or for example masz miły usmiech (what a smile!/your smile is nice) right? of course, there are a lot of words which we can use, but I don't make you bored, dear reader ;p

sooooo, if you want show that you know a lot of languages, please firstly check hunderds times if term which you want use is good for situation

~~~~

violet166 — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 17:58:55 GMT

~~~~

I change my opinion, I won't delete account... so, you see, i'm unpredictable... ;p anyway, lucky i haven't test with english tomorrow, for me is without difference, if test will be tommorow or in Thursday, usually I short learn english... now we have conditional, and lessons with that were very boring :S but for my friend... she always has few pieces of paper words with one unit, I say her that she should talk with sb in english, but she don't want... her bussiness...

I should learn history... but I don't do this..

and maths... maths is the worst :S

I began to listen Eminem, strange.. one year ago, I said that it's 'stupid music' you know what I mean, but now, I like it!

I hope, spring will come soon...

what did I think???

violet166 — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 22:13:57 GMT

what did I think???

maybe I should delete my account on ebaby, it's definitely not for me...I'm not type of person who is sociable and talkative, so I think it will be better if I finish to exhausted other.

greetings,

Violet.

its a good day, very good...(update)

violet166 — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 14:15:22 GMT

its a good day, very good...(update)

sooooo, i'm very happy, bacause today:

1. Tomasz Sikora gained 3rd place in biathlon contest in Trondheim(he started from 13th place)

2. polish group ski-jumpres gained 2nd place in ski jumping in Planica (it's a first time when Polish gain so high place)

3. Justyna Kowalczyk gained 3rd place in cross-country skiing (tomorrow she will fight about first place in last classification of World Cup)

sorry, that I added earlier not complete note, but I must interrupted for the few minutes :/

regards,

Violet ;D

no, no, no again the same :/

violet166 — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 17:04:39 GMT

no, no, no again the same :/

so, today was competition Ski Jumping World Cup in Planica, and..... unfortunately Małysz didn't won because better was Gregor Schlierenzauer, but only about 0,5 metre! Małysz jumped 202,5m whereas Schlierenzauer 203m :S always the same, lacked 0,5, 1 or 2 points ;/ what's a pity!

anyway, I was today in church with my friend because we had retreat, but we went out in half mass ;p there was very cold :S and we go for shopping, I bought a shoulder bag similar to this:

haha... I couldn't decide which I should chose, but at last... it's this ;p

greetings

Violet

Wojciech Cejrowski do you know him? and... maybe in next two weeks you'll see me in ginger hair ;p

violet166 — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 18:01:18 GMT

Wojciech Cejrowski do you know him? and... maybe in next two weeks you'll see me in ginger hair ;p

WOJCIECH CEJROWSKI
(born 1964)

IN SHORT:
Traveller, seeker of endangered cultures of the Amazon region,
Televison personality
Popular radio journalist
Cabaret artist (in his own words: I am a comedian)
Writer and publicist
Satirist - radical fault-finder of bureaucracy and socialism
Music critic (I just know from repeated hearing)
Photographer
...and a professional carpenter
Whatever he does - it is always with passion.
He is radical, expressive and uncompromising - some consider it a weakness, other - a virtue. He is a generous fault-finder and chary of praise.

You would rather have him as your friend than your opponent, but even as an opponent he is worthy of attention: demanding, uncompromising, fighting till the end. You could fully taste a victory after battling and winning with him.

JOURNEYS:
(in chronological order)

1985 - Cuba, Mexico - speleological expedition
1986 - Mexico - a documentary on the archeological stands of the Toltec culture
1986 - Mexico - Lacadonians - descendants of the Maya
1987 - Mexico - a documentary on the archeological stands of the Maya
1987/88 - Mexico - Tribes on the Borderlines Between the Aztecs and the Maya
1989 - USSR - Orthodox Monastery - the Capitals of the Orthodox Church
1989 - Mexico - The Lost Tribe - Modern Descendants of the Indians
1990 - Guatemala, Honduras, Mexico - Mundo Maya
1990 - USSR - Life in the Communes
1990 - Caucasus - excursion
1991 - Costa Rica, Nicaragua, Honduras, Salvador, Guatemala, Belize - Guerilla - Under-ground Army, Rebels and Ordinary Gangsters
1991 - Guatemala - unknown Maya’s ruins; descendants of the slaves of Jamaica
1992 - Texas/Mexico - Tribes on the Border - Tarahumara, Raramuri
1993 - USA - POW WOW. Modern Indian Rituals
1994 - Honduras, Mexico - Mosquito Indians project
1995 - Colombia - Kogi Indians
1996 - Panama/Colombia - Crossing Darien on foot; Choco and Kuna Indians
1997 - Venezuela/Brazil - Yanomami, Curripaco i Piaroa Indians
1997 - Australia - From Adelaide to York Peninsula
1998 - Venezuela/Colombia - Carapana Indians
1998 - USA/Canada/Mexico - Mennonites, Amish and Mormones
1999 - Guyana/Venezuela/Brazil - Last Wai Wai Indians
1999/2000 - Marocco - Ramadan
2000 - Paraguay/Brazil - Mennonici, Ache, Ayoreo, Nivacle Indians - Gran Chaco
2001 - Peru/Ecuador - through the Napo River; Sekoya tribe
2002 - Colombia, Peru, Brazil - Marubo, Mayoruna and Yagua tribes
2003 - Suriname/French Guyana/Brazil - Bush Negros, Wayana, Tirio and Wai Wai tribes
2004 - Israel/Palestine - In the Footsteps of Jesus
2004 - Costa Rica/Panama - Garifuna - An African Tribe of the Caribbean
2005 - Peru - Following the Incas - Machu Picchu, Cuzco
2005 - Boliwia - Jesuit reductions on the Bolivian Chaco, by the Rio Madre de Dios to Peru

It's he:

maybe someone know his books?

I read this book second time, it full funny situations, and is very interesting....

do you know podcasts?

violet166 — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 18:59:29 GMT

do you know podcasts?

do you listen podcasts? do you know what is it?

according to wikipedia, podcast; usually consists of a combination of audio and/or video that is made available for download via syndication. It is this syndication aspect of the delivery that separates a podcast from a file available for download. The files are usually retrieved with software applications (generically known as podcatchers) such as Apple's iTunes so that subscribers can listen at their convenience on devices that have intermittent, slow, or are otherwise lacking Internet access. The podcatcher reads an [RSS] feed (whose entries point to specific podcasts, usually sorted by date) to identify and retrieve the podcast.

Like the term broadcast, podcast can refer either to the content itself or to the method by which the content is syndicated; the latter is also called podcasting. A podcaster is the person who creates the content.

I encourage to learn english podcasts of teacher John

http://www.englishteacherjohn.com/
his podcast are really good, usually podcast are about english grammar and idioms, everything he explain very easy, and language which he use is easy, so even people on elementary level understand what he says (unfortunately I don't listen him too often :/ it need concetration, and I usually do notes with podcaast ;p)

of, course there a lot of podcast but maybe some links:

www.thebobandrobshow.com

it's for people on higher level than intermediate, for me it's too difficult and I don't understand too much, but maybe someone try... ;D

www.eslpod.com

personally, I don't listen, once, I listened, but English Cafe is stupid for me, I don't like... but maybe I should listen again...

it's impossible...

violet166 — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 10:31:15 GMT

it's impossible...

no, no, no... I can't believe, it's snowing again!!! :S I haven't words how much I'm angry with this reason...

it makes me crazy... :/

regards from SNOWING Poland

Saint Patrick's Day

violet166 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 12:53:23 GMT

Saint Patrick's Day

Saint Patrick's Day (Irish: Lá ’le Pádraig or Lá Fhéile Pádraig), colloquially St. Paddy's Day or Paddy's Day, is an annual feast day which celebrates Saint Patrick (circa AD 385–461), one of the patron saints of Ireland, and is generally celebrated on March 17.

The day is the national holiday of Ireland. It is a bank holiday in Northern Ireland and a public holiday in the Republic of Ireland and Montserrat. In Canada, Great Britain, Australia, the United States, and New Zealand, it is widely celebrated but is not an official holiday.

I don't want make you bored, so if you want, you find some informtaion about this in web

hahahaha :D

greetings from cold Poland ;D

Violet

library, books and learning... :S

violet166 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 09:05:03 GMT

library, books and learning... :S

lately, everything annoying me...programms in TV, people everything! just, I'm finishing my brekfast, I for few minutes, I' go to the library, as usual I'll borrow dozens books, and I'll learn with them... I don't feel today the best. I'm fell tired and bored. In night, I couldn't fall asleep. Lucky, I have 6 days free time ;d

about me again

violet166 — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 22:37:30 GMT

about me again

so, some people; my friends tell me that I look elder than I'm really. I'm 16 but they tell that I'm 17-18. Am I really look on 17-years? they tell I'm too mature as for my age, is it good or not?

and I'm not so sweet as people think, really I have ironic humour, I'm arrogant, charismatic, unconventional, passionate, wary, original etc. I can hurt someone too... I don't like talk too much, I'm a type a person who prefer listen (but! not crying or sad people!) not talk, I don't say too much, I think a lot, I'm very independent, I hate work in group, I hate these false people who think that are so cool and super, my view is very liberal, I like talk about politics, but usually other don't want :S I don't know why? I love discuss about things which are very controversial

sooo, don't you afraid me? :D

spring...

violet166 — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 14:39:01 GMT

spring...

I was today in shop, and when I came back, for the first time in this year I felt real spring, sun shines, breath of wind, birds sing... I love that...

in future, I want move to other country, but it's impossible :/ I won't leave family here, so maybe I take my family with me...

F1- one with my favorite sports ;D

violet166 — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 17:42:26 GMT

F1- one with my favorite sports ;D

so, I'm surprised, in ebaby's forum I found 1 topic about F1 ! ONE! ONLY ONE! it's a world sport, three years ago nobody knew what's F1 in Poland, but now, the most know (thanks first Polish in F1 racing-Robert Kubica), and it's strange, one topic.... anyway, 29th March is first race in this season-GP Australia,

Some info about GP Australia

The Australian Grand Prix is a Formula One race that is part of the annual Formula One championship season. It is held at the Melbourne Grand Prix Circuit at Albert Park in Melbourne. The event was held annually since 1928 at various venues in Australia, before it became part of the Formula One championship in 1985. The race was held at the Adelaide Street Circuit in Adelaide from 1985 to 1995, before moving to Melbourne in 1996.

all info from wikipedia.org ;)

somebody watched races in last season? I watched almost all, besides just GP Australia, unfortunately Polish didn't finish race because Japanese crashed with him :/

salutation,

Violet

long break...

violet166 — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 16:38:35 GMT

long break...

yum, I just ate almost all a bar of chocolate, it was delicious... :D my friend tell me that I shouldn't eat all the time, but I don't put on weight at all, so I haven't to look what I eat ;p

in next week (I mean 17-20) I have a long break in school, on Tuesday is a tour, and on Wed. Thr. and Fr. are retreat, but I won't go on them, always priest say the same what was one years ago... it's boring... and these people... some with them will be there only because mum or dad tell, as me few years ago...

at last, today my teacher (man) stopped ask me about my life, it was annoying, if he had asked me again about sth. I would have said him sth. unpleasant.

i think it's that's all...

greeting,

Violet

I haven't screen again!

violet166 — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 14:26:33 GMT

I haven't screen again!

heh... yesterday, was my uncle and took away his screen, unfortunately mine don't become repair yet, I'm really sad, now I'm in school, but soon I'll go, at 15.35 I have last bus :S

so, I want tell, that here is a lot of snow :S I hate it, all night before yesterday snowed, yesterday snowed all the time too...

I thought, that soon will be spring, but this snow....

I think, it's that all for this day, maybe tomorrow, I write sht....

bye,

Violet

about music and my thought ;p

violet166 — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 22:26:38 GMT

about music and my thought ;p

so, I did my playlist so long, but I finished, you can see that on my profile, my day was today very boring, i tried learn, but I can't feel like it :/ tomorrow, I must learn, on monday I have two tests :/

In TV, begin show political advertising, exactly party which I hate, so when I see this advertising I change canal, funny, master of this party thinks that he will be more nice if will be more advertising with him? and his: 'Act no miracle' -'-

when I will am 18 yrs. I won't vote for him, never! and his party are conservative and I'm liberal in my view... you know...

that all in this day, it's 23.25, I go sleep, and probably I will sleep 13 hours as today ;D hahaha...

best regards,

Violet

what can I do in weekend? ;p

violet166 — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 21:32:08 GMT

what can I do in weekend? ;p

so, i ask: what can I do in weekend?

a) learn :S the worst possibility, but I'm definitely sure that I'll do :/

b) surf in the Internet, of course, I'll do this ;D

c) go to the cinema etc. rather not... maybe in next week

ok, I'm a bit joking ;p I got 3 with biology test, it's rather well, and as I thought 1 with maths, I have correction :S, I did today over 30 examples, I can't do any more today... I'm tired. I again listen Craig David - Don't Love You No More, I want dance with sb....

last, I noticed, that boys look on me strange... (???) what's mean? ;p

I must tell, that this website give me a lot of new friends, and my english a bit improve, at least I don't have to think about word, which I knew, but forgot :/ ;D and I know new words.... I must persuade my friend that fill up her profile, and begin write with other!

I began listen a hip-hop song, strange, earlier I don't like them, but! no polish hip hop, it's stupid for me, and e.g my 'fellow' listen polish hip hop and thinks that she's so cool, it's really funny. I listen sometimes metal and I don't have to say every person who I meet...

really, sometimes, I don't understand people...

oh, I reminded one lesson and teacher; he is so annoying, he's joking all the time, and he thinks it's really funny, but it's not

ok, that's all in this day, I think so. here is 22.30 and I'm not sleepy, strange ;p

bisous,

Violet

better than yesterday

violet166 — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 16:47:16 GMT

better than yesterday

I still fell angry, tired and without power... I got 4 (!?) with french... very strange... ehhhh.... unfortunately tomorrow I will fell worse than today, because I have maths and teacher is going to give back our test... I'm really sure that I get 1 :S I don't know... I hate physics, chemistry but maths, which I did like, now is so bad... I do a lot of exercise with maths, but always teacher give so strange examples that I don't know from this must I begin... it's awful :/

my computer make my really angry, it all the time jam and I can't normally listen to music :/

I don't know what I can say more...

oh, I have a question; do you understand what I write, I mean, I do a lot mistakes, etc?

Salutation,

Violet

fuckin'life....

violet166 — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 15:41:49 GMT

fuckin'life....

I have crisis, I feel very, very badly, problems in school, with family'n'friends; it's too much for me. at least, here I can be anonymus author, and write this what I feel... nobody know what I feel or think, cause? if all know what I feel and think, they can be hurt me, and please don't tell me that's not true, that i should be frank etc. but once (1 or 2 years ago) a lot a people hurt my, just because I was honest and I don't want feel this again...

I begin regret that I chose this school, not another... I have more and more learning...

I'm stupid, ugly and bad... I hate me, my character, this that I can't talk with people normally... I want die...

best regards,

Violet

bad day...

violet166 — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 16:24:53 GMT

bad day...

yo, men and women!

today... I had 2 hours PE, ehhhh... teacher again almost cry on me and my friend :/ Firstly, she(teacher) show my friend how she should rebound ball, and it was very funny, so I began laugh and few minutes later, when teacher went to other group, we began loudly laugh for ten minutes! and teacher again went to us, and she told us: 'Why don't you exercises'... bla, bla, bla... us usual...I hate this teacher, she seems nice etc. but she isn't so.

I got today with history essay three. It's not well, it's not badly, but I delight, because I wrote rubbish... hahaha...

tomorrow I have essay with Latin, I must learn... ehhh... I don't feel like it.

why life must be so difficult????

grrr...I get the hiccups, I can't stop...

I eat 2nd portion chips :d I can't more...

greetings,

Violet

Oh, I forgot, in next week my class will go to the cinema, and must go all class, but i don't want, so why they force me to go?If i don't want, I won't go, that's all. I don't have to tell every person, why I don't want go... I'll go to the cinema on film, which I want see alone! they choose movie which I don't like.... they don't understand me, I hate my class, they say, that we are together, we shouldn't have secret in class etc. but it's false! funny, they think that we are so well-suited to each other...

unfortunately, i have this 'bad' character, I don't believe in love, I don't go to the church, friend for me it's nothing, only my family... I love my mum, dad, sis and bro; they're the most important people in my life!

my poor computer...

violet166 — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 09:16:56 GMT

my poor computer...

Hello everyone!

I'm in bad mood!

my monitor broke down, day before yesterday, it's awful; no music, no news, no write with my penpals, I must wait for new about three weeks :S I will die to this moment... I'm writting with computer school, and I rarely am on computer in near future... so, I'm really sorry, if I won't answer for e-mail...

regards,

Violet

boxing ;p

violet166 — Fri, 27 Feb 2009 20:52:26 GMT

boxing ;p

Do you like boxing? I ask because tomorrow is fight beetween Polish Tomasz Adamek and americain Jonathon Banks about boxing's World Championship organization IBF in cruiser junior weight . I want watch this fight but it's early :S in Poland starts 5.00 a.m, so I'm afraid I won't get up so early, it's a pity, but i hope that will win Adamek, but I think it'll be difficult, Banks didn't lost at all, but Adamek lost only once!

I'm listening those soundtracks all the time...

greetings,

Wiola.

soundtracks, match soccer and polish...

violet166 — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 23:24:51 GMT

soundtracks, match soccer and polish...

so, hi again!

I decided find soundtracks from Slumdog Millionaire and I can't stop listen, these songs are awesome!

I watch match soccer (LECH-Udinese) and LECH lost! :/and first half was really good, we won 1-0, but second half- it's defeat, we lost 2-1, it's a pity... I don't know what can I say more. shortage words...

It's 00.15 here, I've just finished write points for tommorows essay with polish, I hope that it will be useful...

I'm die... I'm tired... and I want sleep 10 hours! ;p not 5!

I'm listening Mausum & Escape with Slumdog... again. I love this soundtrack! I feel this, this song does sth. with me... I love when I can sit on armchair, close my eyes and listen...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WOWIH41W4c

regards,

Violet

Slumdog Millionaire

violet166 — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 15:43:21 GMT

Slumdog Millionaire

so, yesterday I watch Slumdog Millionaire, in two days is going to be premiere in Poland ( I'll go the cinema on this film) , but i couldn't wait, movie was in english of course, but I almost all understood, and i must tell that movie was awesome, I would like watch again and again.. as a rule I don't watch melodrama, because I always cry on this kind film, and on this flim I cried too, but it doesn't change that film is really, really good ( and main actor is handsome ;p) it's the best film which I've ever seen

so, if someone doesn't watch this movie yet, I encourage to see...

I can't wait for this movie in polish cinema, I neccesary must go :D

greeting,

Violet

the answer is: D DESTINY

PS. day after tomorrow, new photos ;P (with my crazy friend xD)

actor, and sth. from me ;p

violet166 — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 21:50:23 GMT

actor, and sth. from me ;p

so, I am again! ;D

do you know this actor?

no?

so maybe you know this?

I love this serial and Dr. House ;p he is different than all doctors and I like just such people who don't afraid tell what think and feel, and he is mysterious and nobody know how is really. i really like this in men...

ufortunately, life with me is really difficult, I have ironic sense of humour and I'm Scorpio- it explain all.

for example:

The Scorpio represents one of the strongest, most intelligent signs of the zodiac. He or she has a deep well of strength that, if tapped into, can produce a powerful ally, or a vindictive enemy. A huge abundance of energy usually makes this person a powerful achiever and go-getter; the Scorpio is not lazy. Though their worst fault is jealousy, in all arenas, they also have the power within to turn this around and DO something about it.

Scorpios have a very strong reserve, and a lot is hidden below the surface. They command respect from acquaintances due to their strong, quiet exterior, and many times work to earn the respect of close ties. They also usually show a lot of creativity, and a great ability for sarcasm with their deadly tongue, which can get them in trouble. This stinger can also, for some, show as a dark side of cruelty, sadism, and enmity. For others, who are more evolved, the stinger helps them transform their lives for the better. They are truly courageous, not afraid of anything. Their endurance makes them plow ahead, overcoming any obstacle in their path.

Though they are considered the "sexiest" sign of the zodiac, Scorpios have gotten a bad rap for being almost sleazy. They simply have strong passions that need regenerating, and a tremendous pride that seems to say, "Don't judge a book by its cover."

On the negative side, Scorpios can be extremely critical, like their allies the Virgos. This can lead to a difficulty with co-workers because of strong judgments of them. Scorpios need to have more stability and steadiness with partners. Their great stubbornness makes them sometimes outsiders, tending to be lone wolves rather than equal partners in relationships.

A Scorpio woman turns heads and grabs attention by her steamy sexuality. She has the power of presence, and a boldness and need for honesty unparalleled in the zodiac. Never, never lie to her, or she'll cut you off. A passionate lover, she can also be jealous or possessive. What she shows on the outside is not necessarily what she's really feeling, unless she's angry. Her rage can explode, with a sarcasm or a piercing look that really stings. Her intuition can be so developed that she borders on the clairvoyant; this can be seen in her eyes. As a mother, she is fiercely devoted and protective, creating a loving and comfortable home for kids.

there are more about Scorpio, but if you want you'll find alone...

but, I'm proud that I am Scorpio, it make different me from all, and i love it. I hate 'grey' 'without soul' people

greeting,

Violet

ufff...

violet166 — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 15:15:22 GMT

ufff...

I'm in home, at last! I'm tired, BUT! I got 4 with test of polish (all Middle Ages)! I'm really happy, I only read that what was in notebook and 4... but there is sth. what order me that I shouldn't be so happy, it's my "lovely" history... I have essay with history tomorrow about middle ages, and i must learn all lesson with this... :S night waits for me ;p

I again behad today as drunk... I loudly talked and laughed, and flirted with boys... ;D

is worse with me...

title runs away ;P

violet166 — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 08:49:57 GMT

title runs away ;P

so, I had already two lessons, and I nothing remember with them... now, I'm having IT, lucky we don't have test, teacher forgot take from home test ;D

that's all... ;P

regards,

Violet

it's to you, Kasiu!

violet166 — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 21:40:15 GMT

it's to you, Kasiu!

so, you promised me that fill up your profile and what? nothing! so, I'm very very ask that you do it! and add some photos! you have pretty photos, so you must show these other ;p

pewnie znowu siedziałaś i uczyłaś sie, tak?

anyway, at last, my computer works quiet! earlier it works very loudly, but today with helping my uncle, we change some things, and it work! I'm really happy, at last I won't awake my parents ;p when I'll be on computer ;D

I love lollipop ;D

no title!

violet166 — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 11:24:16 GMT

no title!

I would like hide somewhere, feel asleep and won't awake...

It's almost noon here... I must go learn history and some english soon. I'm downloading Microsof Office, tomorrow I have test with IT and I must practise doing brochure.

anyway, did you watch F1 races in last season? I did, and I'm proud that Polish drives in so exclusive sport. In last season he was 4th, he could be 3rd but BMW didn't prepare so good car that he won... first race is 29 March-GP Australian, will you watch?

and video,Handball World Cup, match Poland- Norway about semifinal... We almost lost, but... watch this video

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/2352760//

bad day...

violet166 — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 21:44:38 GMT

bad day...

my God... I quarelled with my dad again... he was drunk and he started argue with my mum and I couldn't stand and looked how dad again cried on my mum! so I told his that stopped cry and he wanted hit me but he didn't do this... I hate his for this what he did my mum... sometimes he is really good dad, but usually he doesn't worry what I do, where I go... it hurts... and I again cried...

day before yesterday I saw a young bird on bus stop, it had a break wing, it searched a food, I hope that nobody don't kill his for fun... it will be awful...

today, is last day of carnival, but I'm sick and I couldn't go for disco ;S I feel really bad...

regards,

Wiola

:S

violet166 — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 16:29:35 GMT

:S

damn it! I wrote note and I wanted add, but logged out me!

I don't write all at beggining... maybe later I'll write, but now I go learn my 'lovely' irregular verbs ;p

greetings

Wiola

without subject !

violet166 — Tue, 17 Feb 2009 22:04:47 GMT

without subject !

so, I'm probably crazy

I didn't do homework, tomorrow on breaks I'll do.

I'm surprised, my english teacher didn't cry on me and class today, strange... but maybe she didin't cry because she only explain us how we should do presentation on matura examination...

tomorrow, I have two lesson maths, I think that don't go on last lesson that is maths. teacher'll again say about this that we don't learn :S I hate this.

I constantly listen song's Craig David and Chris Brown( yeah, I know, shortly you'll tell me that he is women's boxer, but his song is awesome!), even now...I love their songs, I must search more songs.

I have headache. :S bleee.. I feel very tired, I slept today only 5 hours, it's too little.

I searched webcam on allegro.pl and I found really good cam. I must buy it!

and again... Superhuman, why always when I listen this song I feel so lonely? I hate this emotion.

I hungry, ehhh... I don't feel like go to kitchen and do sth. to eat.

It's 23.00 now. I go to bed, tomorrow I won't get up ;/

regards,

Violet

my diary by violet166 | English, baby! Blogs

title is not needed

title is not needed

it's my life and my business!

it's my life and my business!

I think again the same.. :S

I think again the same.. :S

?! how it can be...? :/

?! how it can be...? :/

again this stupid sadness...

again this stupid sadness...

need to write. need to cry.

need to write. need to cry.

damned poem ab nothing! I mean ab love :/

damned poem ab nothing! I mean ab love :/

stupid, drunk driver and speed-the best way to accident...

stupid, drunk driver and speed-the best way to accident...

why do u need friends? and why do u want know new people?

why do u need friends? and why do u want know new people?

next fuckin' poem 'Liars'

next fuckin' poem 'Liars'

next poem..

next poem..

yhh.. my fresh poem..

yhh.. my fresh poem..

lol

lol

it's over.

it's over.

sweet, nice, kind.. just awful...

sweet, nice, kind.. just awful...

boszzzz.. czuje się taka pusta...

boszzzz.. czuje się taka pusta...

my english is really so bad..?

my english is really so bad..?

drugs, commit suicide.. or... which way is good to forgot about problems?

drugs, commit suicide.. or... which way is good to forgot about problems?

next day, and next, and next... am I bitch????

next day, and next, and next... am I bitch????

I want die....

I want die....

my sad, strange poem...

my sad, strange poem...

after long break...

after long break...

nice day ;)

nice day ;)

next....

next....

maybe poem?

maybe poem?

fucking swine flu...

fucking swine flu...

yhhh... boring day :S stupid book :S

yhhh... boring day :S stupid book :S

new life...

new life...

about me. part. X

about me. part. X

Senna...

Senna...

one last dance

one last dance

don't click in these links!

don't click in these links!

earrings, webcam...

earrings, webcam...

where are everybody?

where are everybody?

crazy day... ;)

crazy day... ;)

chance or destiny?

chance or destiny?

~~F1~~

~~F1~~

controversial people

controversial people

ehh... again the same

ehh... again the same

too much sleep ;p

F1

F1